Fearless.
To me, “fearless” is not the absence of fear. Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. Fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. Fearless is falling madly in love again, even though you’ve been hurt before. Fearless is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again… even though every time you’ve tried before, you’ve lost. It’s fearless to have faith that someday things will change. Fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can’t breathe without them. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they’ll never stop doing, I think it’s fearless to stop believing them. It’s fearless to say “you’re NOT sorry”, and walk away. I think loving someone despite what people think is fearless. I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is fearless. Letting go is fearless. Then, moving on and being alright…That’s fearless too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in something. Otherwise, there isn’t much worth living for now is there?
Taylor Swift, you got it goin’ on.
The House That Built Me
I thought if I could touch this place or feel it, this brokenness inside me might start healing. Out here it’s like I’m someone else, I thought that maybe I could find myself…
If I could just come in I swear I’ll leave, won’t take nothing but a memory from the house that built me.
Such a powerful song, with the most heartfelt lyrics. Everyone has a moment like this, even if they’ve lived in the same house for years. A moment where, walking through each room, memories surface…seemingly out of nowhere. I wish we still had our old house in Oklahoma; a white two bedroom that had phone numbers written all over the walls (dad never found the time to paint over them). I remember sitting on our porch during the hot summer months, praying that the popsicle wouldn’t completely melt before I got to enjoy it. I remember burying Bucky, Gong, Lucky, Ruby, Julie, Pika…(and the countless other dogs that found a home in our backyard), in our makeshift doggy graveyard. I remember the fireflies that would light up the sky at night, and the daisies that decorated the grass during the day.
I remember the painful parts too, but that’s only natural. After all, I wouldn’t have been able to appreciate all that we had, if it wasn’t stolen from us. And I wouldn’t have learned how to fix a car, if ours didn’t keep breaking down.
I found God in that little house in the woods, as run down as it was, and for the rest of my life I will be eternally grateful.
The Voice
Blake Shelton: “I think Cee Lo told you two to DUET, not DO IT.”
Adam Levine: “You’re so big up there, Blake.”
Blake Shelton: “Like…big around? Or tall?”
Adam Levine: “Tall, man. Like…length.”
Blake Shelton: “…that’s what she said.”
Reasons Why Men Suck
This blog is long overdue.
1) They can’t settle down. It’s like they have to spread their seed to everyone.
2) Male pattern baldness.
3) Once the relationship ends, they assume the sex doesn’t. Um..hello? Are you an IDIOT?!
4) They are never satisfied.
5) Once they’re done with you, they’re on to the next one.
6) They let what their friends say impact them so much, it influences the decisions they make about everything.
7) It’s never quality, but quantity.
8) They don’t like to share their feelings, but expect you to know how they feel. “I think we need to break up.” “Why?” “Oh…you know.” No, dumbass. I really don’t.
9) Typically only care about a girl if they’re getting some.
10) They make you want them over and over again, and each time they hurt you like before.
I know the difference between being a Bitch (taking no unwarranted shit) and being an asshole (dishing out unwarranted shit).
Greta Garbo said it best, “All alike, you men. You only want the satisfaction of being through with us first, that’s all. So far I’ve had the good fortune of beating you to it. So I am heartless.”
Idea.
I figure, if I want more apologies, I should make more of an effort to apologize for things I’ve done wrong.
Don’t do it guys, fails every time.
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Didn’t think it would be this hard to spend Mother’s Day without a Mom.
The best rapper ever. Speaks the truth and makes it worth the while.
